Hillary’s “Nasty Women”

I keep seeing t-shirts for the Nasty Women’s brand and it gave me an idea for a podcast, book, or micro-blog really. However, I still have a ‘thesis’ to finish. I sort of feel like Rachel Carson did she had these huge dreams, but found herself bringing together her two loves to survive. I also had this interview for a marketing jobs today, which is fine I’ll go door to door selling people At&t because it is difficult at the moment to get into public urban schools because everyone is so focused on charter schools.

Frankly, I want to work with kids that no one else wants to because I was them 15 years ago. I hope my professors and the administration of the university realize that I did not disclose my ‘learning disabilities’ because I did not want to be judged or labeled. I also know that I’m using too many adjectives and adverbs. I grew up broke and without being in some circle its impossible to get ahead. I went to a meeting yesterday and wondered why I was there when I’m about to move to Miami and live out of my car just to teach because my boyfriend cannot move until we sell the house and he is the only one with a solid income. That is the world we live in folks. Quite tragic. Try to do something positive even when you have next to nothing and the person you help will always remember your kindness. I also contacted a Navy recruiter I would have to drop 27 pound and take the officer test. Guess you got to do whatever you’ve got to do to survive.



I did not get paid this week. The program I was in is gone. I cannot transfer and they have not ‘updated’ the University website since 2010. I started at the hell hole in 2012. So basically all of my degrees don’t exist? It’s bullshit. I just read an article about environmental artwork. REALLY?!!? So we are going to put trees in a museum? I’ve got an idea lets put the swamp in a piece of jewelry so people can wear it because they are going to be eating the air and drinking muddy water with chemicals, but hey let’s keep our “beaches sexy!” Eat a fucking sandwich and stop pushing around smart people. The middle class does not exist anymore. You have money or don’t. So let’s change everything because people voted for a FASCIST! Smart people are going to be hunted by morons and starved out. I’m so sick of calling myself an ‘American’ citizen. I’m ashamed of the stuff that I read and cannot believe this is reality! A few months ago I pulled out all the books I’d ever read about Nazi Germany and this is indeed where we are. I have to get legal counsel just to get out of that fucking University and now they aren’t paying me work. This is a collapse, but we can pretend otherwise.

This is a joke. Worse yet the idiots that work for that place cannot answer any questions with certainity. I emailed the ACLU when this crap started. My identity was stolen and someone decided to create fake accounts in my name. Why? I do not have the money to fix this shit storm. I cannot even possibly think in a scholarly manner because I am so angry. That place is the BIGGEST JOKE. You cannot take a Bachelors degree that was conferred away. Furthermore, you cannot suspend a student just to change a program in the middle of their work. I paid the University for a service and did not receive anything from it. Why is that? Oh and there is no program director so what should I do just walk. Nope. I spoke to someone about legal counsel because this is bull. The reason Florida gets away with what it does is because they ‘threw’ out tons of city records, but they didn’t throw them away. If someone would like to fund a project to stop political corruption I would be happy to be a consultant. I’m sure that countless city documents are destroyed throughout the US just to keep people suppressed. Justice belongs in the hands of the people, not in the hands of thieves. Donald Trump has killed the EPA and it’s DISGUSTING. Someone impeach him before he becomes Hitler. It’s pretty bad when I talk to friends in the armed forces and law enforcement and they are worried about whose hands their lives are in. I think that Donald should have to serve on the front lines and interact with the people he supposedly was going to put back to work.  EDUCATE YOURSELF BECAUSE THIS FUCKER IS AN AUTHORIARN LEADER MARRIED TO A COMMUNIST…… COME ON! HOW STUPID CAN WE POSSIBLY BE? It’s so Un-American very McCarthy is spinning in his grave! I’m sure the John’s Committee (The creators of the Lavender Scare in Florida) would actually lose it over this. The persecuted African Americans and Homosexuals as Communists and the AMERICAN PEOPLE IN THE STATE OF FLORIDA VOTING FOR AN FASCIST WHO IS MARRIED TO A COMMUNIST….. It really cannot possibly be any worse! Perhaps we should be teaching the crap they taught in the 1950s how to identify a communist and a fascist because GUESS WHAT WE HAVE BOTH IN OFFICE AND THEY TRAVEL HERE OFTEN. I LOVE DEMOCRACY AND THIS IS NOT DEMOCRACY!

What makes me so pissy is that I was perfectly fine with writing about Kathryn Abbey Hanna. Technology sucks and obviously making people stupid. I just want to hit someone with a BOOK! This is not the first or last time I’ve said that statement. I’ve stopped giving a shit frankly because UNF is obviously not a real UNIVERSITY. I want a refund for my B.A. and all the coursework for my M.A.



This post started somewhat out of the blue between searching for job, scholarships, and reading idiocrasy…I mean news about current events. Peter Novick wrote the “bible” or the history of the historical profession That Noble Dream and I’ve noticed as of late that historians are reluctant to use historiography when discussing the development of the profession, in what I will call the age of ‘crisis.’ I picked up Novick for the first time as an undergraduate and faced it head on in American readings two and go back to it often. I go back to this book regardless of the topic I am working on because I am curious about shifts in the profession over time. What historian would not want to know how the history of the profession has changed? Yet, what struck me is the professor that lead us through the work, roughly a year ago now, bet that the profession would shift back towards ‘big history.’ I love to argue, but he was absolutely right, but no one has really considered that yet. As I started my masters’ thesis I noticed that myself, along with others in my cohort become increasingly interested in intellectual history, it’s not like we were all exposed to it, but somehow all drifted in that direction, perhaps because of the composition of our intellectual community. Although we all had very different topics, we still wanted to understand the context in which our topics were created. I’ve thought about this numerous times and wondered how a medievalist and two environmental historians drifted in the same direction at the same time. As an undergraduate I found myself watching the profession, but now more so than ever before, I was drawn back to Novick and chapter “There was no King in Israel” and this struck me, has the American Historical profession fallen off a cliff?

*Gasp* Say it ain’t so! Yet, I would argue no it has not, but historians themselves have lost their sense of direction in a short space of time and I wondered why? Perhaps, it is just me, but I have noticed that the humanities are increasingly bleeding into one another, but is it to save ourselves? I picture a bunch of humanist huddled in a corner clutching each other and our respective books. I’m aware of the importance of sticking together to save our professions, but how far do we go? Historians without historiography is like living in a bizarre alternative reality, and it seems that we are losing the fundamentals of our profession at an alarming rate and I’m not strictly talking about American, World, or however you choose to label yourself, I’m referring to historians generally. In the chapter mentioned above, Novick argued that the profession fragmented over time and that the profession reached beyond the point of no return. Yet, is that true have we indeed gone over Novick proverbial cliff? It seems that way and I say that because there is limited scholarship on the development of the profession beyond Novick’s book. This could be a gross overgeneralization, but is there a scholarly work produced since the late 1980s that cover the changes to the profession? We are overdue for an update, especially with many recent changes. The fragmentation of the profession also made me ponder about democracy, which also seems fragmented or in a downward spiral every time I see an article or post on Facebook or other outlet titles scream ‘constitutional crisis,’ or ‘death of liberalism,’ just to name the two that stuck out. Do these article suggestion, much like the American historical profession, which is arguably modeled after the empire it serves, dead or in crisis? I would argue that the profession is a by-product of the society it was constructed in, but that it is not in crisis, but will be if historians do not stay thinking in larger terms outside of their niches. Historians are time “turners or tuners” and we have strayed too far from our roots, and perhaps entangled ourselves so far into our specialties that we cannot find a common solution to a reasonably simple problem. Mind you, I’m aware how challenging it is to craft an all-encompassing historiographical study of the profession, but at this critical point in time, American historians inparticular need to think about how the profession fits into a transnational, international, or global context. The U.S. did not develop in isolation there is no reason why its history should be either. Americanist love tunnel vision, but I can say that because my small graduate program had few Americanist, I learned how to transform my own work by openly exploring and injecting historiographies into the mix.

As I have written many times before, historians do not ‘predict’ the future, but we do use an acute awareness of the past to frame the present. Some scholars are shifting back to regional and local studies, which is typical when we feel we have lost our edge, but I would argue in the age of anti-intellectualism more people (the public in this case) is drawn to understanding the past because they have lost faith in the media, political leaders or feel prosecuted. I will omit my own current events, but I too find myself clinging to my knowledge of the past very tightly these days. People are increasing seeking their truths and historians should embrace this in some form or fashion. The blockade seems to originate with administrators and institutional models, which are not considering knowledge for knowledge’s sake. Most of them, if they are not a top tier institution look to produce an economically sound plan and not educate or liberate a students’ mind (just a personal observation). Yet, as is evident by the education system, we should encourage tradition academic approaches, alongside hybrid structures, but must also understand how the public interacts with history (the past). Furthermore, it is our role Continue reading “Historiography”